rants #40

6 years and 1 day .

Guess what , that is the age of my dearest blog :) happy belated birthday ! Too bad i missed it .. ==' but nevermind.

You see,

I used to talk very fast. But living with other normal-paced-speech-people had taught me to slow down my speech. Well, a bit. A lot actually. You should have meet the 7 years old me. Uish, semua orang jumpa akan bagitahu saya cakap macam kereta api. Orang kata, orang yang cakap laju ni biasanya otak dia pun fikir laju. Orang kata, bukan saya :P hehee . But yeah, my mind do wanders a lot. Especially in a moving vehicle. Reason? No idea at all. Ilham datang mencurah-curah kalau duduk dalam bas ke kereta ke, macam-macam otak ni fikir tanpa sebarang paksaan  (read; brainstorming) .

Nak katanya, melalui medium blog ni lah, saya belajar menyusun apa-apa yang terlintas macam kereta api kat minda ni.

So yeah, kudos blog < 3


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so let's talk about my clinical life. Again. Hahahaa k =='

Maka, minggu ni group kitorang berada di outpatient department. It is awesome and there is 2 more days to call it a week. Semalam ikut Dr yang specialized dalam chest surgery. Banyak sangat cases, bertalu-talu datang pesakit. Tengok CT scan, X rays. For today dapat Dr yang specialized in peripheral vascular diseases, tengok Dr bersihkan luka (diabetic foot), ada skin graft, follow up patient yang baru amputate. *tarik nafas dalam-dalam* I have to say this, "you still have a very long way to go, Faziera Diana"

Minggu lepas masa round dekat hospital dengan Dr, Dr pergi dekat icu, tunjuk contoh for drainage. The patient survived a road traffic accident (RTA), ada internal bleeding and dia tengah drain blood from the chest. The patient is a young kid. Kesian sangat dekat dia. Masa cakap 'salamtik' (which means; sejahtera ke atas kamu. It is a common phrase untuk doakan orang dekat sini) pun I couldn't hide my concerned and sad face :( which I shouldn't show as a professional future physician. But yeah, the learning process will take time. And I shall be tough cause things are only getting harder from now on.

Tapi terngiang-ngiang lagi muka si comel Salam masa round paediatric dulu. I hope she is getting better now :)


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Entah, sedar tak sedar dah tahun 4. Lagi 2 tahun setengah je lagi. Yes, I am scared of the future. Can I make it through? Can I be a reliable and competent doctor? Most importantly, can I survive being a doctor in Malaysia? What about my family and future family? Sometimes I cant help but thinking of who would have wanted a doctor as a wife =='

Okay, stop. Jangan jauh sangat, patah balik jom.


So yeah, the future depends on what we do in the present.

Focus on doing your best right now. Have faith in Him. Put your trust in the One who knows every single thing that had happened and going to happen. Cause we are just mere humans after all. All weak and fragile. Without His mercy, we are nothing.



May Allah guide us all the way through :)