hey you, chin up

Social media should never be your first choice if you wanted to share your happiness, sadness or disappointment. But how I wish I can just ring my best buddies (who live so far away from me, approximately 6h (malaysia) or even 8 or 9hours? (japan) ) but no, nope. So, yay timezone difference :)

Just one of those days when you just feel gloomy and nope for everything. Like losing yourself for a bit? Things are getting harder, the walls are getting higher, the road is going to be tougher, and acting like this ain't gonna bring you anywhere, dearest self. 

So come on now, we need the optimistic faziera :P *ke? haha kbai* 

Maka ayuhlah sama-sama kita dengar lagu yang menaikkan semangat ni, hihi. Kejap je nak merepek sebab this girl have so much other tasks to be settled, tapi tak sedar diri melepet kat bilik Tasneem lama-lama, aigoo hahaa. Enjoy the song < 3

sweater weather

Hey,

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

How's your day? I hope it is great. Well, mine was em super great :P ahaaa it is what we actually call as guilty pleasure. It's the weekend but I didn't even read any lectures yet. Didn't even lift any page of that Browse book. Yeah, that is what we call the medical-student-syndrome (feeling guilty due to lack of studying). But today is an exception. With the gloomy weather, wrapping yourself up in a very comfortable blanket while watching a great movie. *heavy-breathing* That kind of weekend only comes once in a blue moon for a medical student. So, yeah, gonna appreciate it while it last hahahaa *still trying to justify my laziness luls

For this week, my group-mates and I didn't even have to take any history from the patients because we were in the outpatient department (clinics) YEAAAY what a great week with a great weekend ! Alhamdulillah :)


Okay, so I did said that I was gonna do a travelogue cause it's been a while isn't it? So here we go. Let's hear my Korea trip story.


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If I were to be given a chance to describe Korea in 1 word, it will be; AMAZING .

Especially Jeju Island. Yes, i fall in love with that very amazing Island. The cute and friendly ahjummas (aunties) , the tourist friendly tourism sites, and our cute genie (the name of our GPS that were installed in our rent car) who helped us reach anywhere that we wanted to go. Seoul is great, but Jeju is amazing. Maybe because of the stunning scenery that I've witnessed back in Jeju. SubhanAllah. The sea breeze. The smooth sand (Probably the smoothest sand that had ever touched my feet) Oh my :')

Or maybe because it's my very first road trip with my favorite girls :)

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But too bad, the internet is running real slow. It kills my mood. As there are too many pictures to be shared with everyone so I'll just continue writing this when my internet's line is better.

Sorry.

But I really hope you guys enjoy your weekend like I do < 3

kalau dunia pun Allah dah cipta seindah ni, apatah lagi syurga, ye dok ? 

tapi syurga bukan untuk orang malas, ok T_T

rants #40

6 years and 1 day .

Guess what , that is the age of my dearest blog :) happy belated birthday ! Too bad i missed it .. ==' but nevermind.

You see,

I used to talk very fast. But living with other normal-paced-speech-people had taught me to slow down my speech. Well, a bit. A lot actually. You should have meet the 7 years old me. Uish, semua orang jumpa akan bagitahu saya cakap macam kereta api. Orang kata, orang yang cakap laju ni biasanya otak dia pun fikir laju. Orang kata, bukan saya :P hehee . But yeah, my mind do wanders a lot. Especially in a moving vehicle. Reason? No idea at all. Ilham datang mencurah-curah kalau duduk dalam bas ke kereta ke, macam-macam otak ni fikir tanpa sebarang paksaan  (read; brainstorming) .

Nak katanya, melalui medium blog ni lah, saya belajar menyusun apa-apa yang terlintas macam kereta api kat minda ni.

So yeah, kudos blog < 3


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so let's talk about my clinical life. Again. Hahahaa k =='

Maka, minggu ni group kitorang berada di outpatient department. It is awesome and there is 2 more days to call it a week. Semalam ikut Dr yang specialized dalam chest surgery. Banyak sangat cases, bertalu-talu datang pesakit. Tengok CT scan, X rays. For today dapat Dr yang specialized in peripheral vascular diseases, tengok Dr bersihkan luka (diabetic foot), ada skin graft, follow up patient yang baru amputate. *tarik nafas dalam-dalam* I have to say this, "you still have a very long way to go, Faziera Diana"

Minggu lepas masa round dekat hospital dengan Dr, Dr pergi dekat icu, tunjuk contoh for drainage. The patient survived a road traffic accident (RTA), ada internal bleeding and dia tengah drain blood from the chest. The patient is a young kid. Kesian sangat dekat dia. Masa cakap 'salamtik' (which means; sejahtera ke atas kamu. It is a common phrase untuk doakan orang dekat sini) pun I couldn't hide my concerned and sad face :( which I shouldn't show as a professional future physician. But yeah, the learning process will take time. And I shall be tough cause things are only getting harder from now on.

Tapi terngiang-ngiang lagi muka si comel Salam masa round paediatric dulu. I hope she is getting better now :)


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Entah, sedar tak sedar dah tahun 4. Lagi 2 tahun setengah je lagi. Yes, I am scared of the future. Can I make it through? Can I be a reliable and competent doctor? Most importantly, can I survive being a doctor in Malaysia? What about my family and future family? Sometimes I cant help but thinking of who would have wanted a doctor as a wife =='

Okay, stop. Jangan jauh sangat, patah balik jom.


So yeah, the future depends on what we do in the present.

Focus on doing your best right now. Have faith in Him. Put your trust in the One who knows every single thing that had happened and going to happen. Cause we are just mere humans after all. All weak and fragile. Without His mercy, we are nothing.



May Allah guide us all the way through :)