constellations of thought : the hardest part .

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

the hardest part is always, saying goodbye.

hehe, okay. Alhamdulillah first exam is over wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee >< so maknyanya lagi 6 paper left , till i finish my first year of medical degree here, hurm :')

so, lepas exam i rewarded myself with a movie. sebenarnya before exam dah tengok separuh, kira sambung lagi separuh je lah. It is , 'The Last Song' and actually i thought it wasn't that sad sebab half the beginning okay je, sekali the other half tu i cried indefinitely TT.TT

make me rasa lagi rindu dekat abah. hurm :(

and also,

that feels, when someone important, left you. I feel it, Ronnie.

Its always the hardest part, to actually accept it and move on.

so, hari ni exam, semalam dapat berita , cik Aya dah pergi. pergi ke mana dia kembali. still remember her, from this post ?

tapi , sangat terkilan . sebab tak sempat nak lawat dia dulu, tak sempat nak bagi dia semangat macam mana cik Aya and pakcik Hassan were there for my late mum. pakcik Hassan and mum were quite close. it just , i dont know macam mana to be in his place, to lose both women he loves , disebabkan penyakit yang sama. Dulu, mama pergi pun masa Jumaat petang, sama macam cik Aya. Feels like, ada flashback datang tiba-tiba, but its okay now. Allah have reason for everything. Rasa macam nak balik Malaysia and hug my cousins , pakcik Hassan, and lend them my strength . Tapi, yang terbaik ialah untuk saya berada di Jordan, and Allah knows .

-AlFatihah-

the beauty of Islam is, Faith . We will always believe that Allah always knows what is best, so that if anything in this world disappoint us, we can still have the strength to look up and smile.

and anything in the world is impermanent, and its all belongs to Allah :)