Me and medical posting and 2019 ending soon?

Assalamualaikum wbt

Hm .. nampaknya memang seorang Faziera ni akan update blog bila end of posting je ke ? Hahahaha k ..

2019 is ending real soon.

What's your biggest achievement in this year?

What's mine?
What is my biggest regret? What is my sweetest experience?
So many questions playing on my mind right now.  All, to be answered privately. Of course :)

Time is fleeting isn't it? And it has always been this way and we know it.
But do we really appreciate every moments that passed by us?
For every wrinkles that we grew on, for every strands of hair which is slowly turning grey,
I really hope that each of them meant something.

Being in medical for almost 4 months now, made me think more about how short our life actually is, and we can never know it.

Am I ready to depart with the world? No, of course not .. :(

Mula-mula masa masuk Medikal post, I was posted in Hematology ward (hemato-onco) back in September. There's one case that really affects me, this 34 years old lady, newly diagnosed with ALL (acute lymphoblastic leukemia), incidental findings masa buat dental checkup in June. At that time, her symptoms was loss of weight and ada gum swelling.

During my second week, she was warded for the 1st cycle of chemotherapy. She was very thin and look so feeble. But she smiled a lot. And her husband was always there, right beside her. I'm quite close to her because everytime she had a temperature spike, it must be me taking her blood cultures.. everytime.. We even joke around about this xD

But during my last week in hemato, her condition deteriorates. When she was intubated, her sons came to the ward (they both are still so small T_T) One is about 3 years old, another is about 6. The smallest one doesn't even want to come close because he's scared.. She was then transferred to ICU, and passed away the next day.

Let's not talk about my patients in Gastro ward.. The ones with hepatic encephalopathy.. was just fine a week before, then deteriorates very fast .. Most are still young. Not even reaching 50 yet.

So let's take a moment and ask ourselves ;
what makes you so sure that you'll live in another 10 years ?

No one really knows but Him.

Although I'm a sole believer of future planning, how crucial it is to plan ahead,
but the most important thing is to focus about here, and now; the present.

Time is fleeting, and we know it.
That's why we need to make the best of what we have at the moment.

Hm, that does sounds like a good suggestion on how should I roll my 2020.

Okay guys,
Let's wrap up our 2019 nicely
And looks forward our 2020, with hopes & prayers :)

ps / I'll be super surprised if ada lagi orang baca my blog .. so thanks for coming by, appreciate it lot ! HAHA