Cinta bertamu di bumi Arabella

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Assalamualaikum wbt

Tajuk tu tak boleh nak over lagi ke sis. =='

Sebenarnya tak ada apa pun sangat nak share hari ni. Tapi dah masuk bulan Jun dah. 6 bulan daripada 12 bulan, maksudnya apa? Lagi 6 bulan je untuk masuk tahun yang baru T_T Apa khabar azam tahun baru ? Hmmmm

Masa berlalu cepat sangat, sedar tak sedar dah nak genap 4 tahun pun jadi musafir dekat bumi Arabella ni. (Arabella nama lama bagi pekan Irbid ;) ) Petang tadi ambil angin kejap dekat luar, sementara kepala berdenyut-denyut sebab cuaca panas sangat kut *well a migraineur would understand* tiba-tiba rasa sayu pulak. Tiba-tiba baru sedar, ehh rupanya saya dah jatuh hati dengan bumi Arabella ni, tanah syams ni. Mana tak nya, bumi ni lah yang menyaksikan pembesaran dan proses kematangan seorang budak bernama faziera ni. Masa awal-awal sampai sini, I was not even 18 (birthday lambat :3) I was very childish, immature and self-centered. Bukanlah nak kata sekarang ni baik sangat pun, of course I am far from being that very nice and matured young lady, but orang kata slowly but surely. Doakan lah.


So yeah, back to the part where I just realized that I've already fallen in love with this place. The community, the places, the beautiful starry night, the gorgeous sunset, awan kepul kepul yang amat tersangat comel, and of course kat sini jugak saya sedar yang sebenarnya saya dah mula jatuh suka dekat bidang medik ni :')

Apahal sentimental sangatt ni oi -_-


Semoga seorang faziera dapat memanfaatkan sepenuhnya masa berbaki lagi 2 tahun di sini. Bumi barakah ni menyaksikan banyak sangattt keajaiban, antaranya memang senang sangatt Allah nak kabulkan permintaan. Kadang tu dalam hati rasa nak makan sesuatu, sekali dalam masa yang terdekat memang dapat je. Selalu sangattt

So dear people, I do not regret the choice that I've made to further my study here .


AHAHAHA INI BUKAN PROMOSI HANYA LUAHAN HATI


Wishing you guys all the best, wherever you are, whatever you do. Ingat, apa yang Allah rancangkan untuk kita tu sememangnya sebaik-baik rancangan. Just trust Him okay ?  ♥ ♥

random picture taken this evening ;p

Paeds posting

Alhamdulillah alhamdulillah alhamdulilah,

selesai 3 postings :) (acah-acah gaya Malaysia heee, sebenarnya kat sini kitorang biasanya guna term 'rotation' tapi macam cool pulak bila cakap posting heeee)

Semalam osce exam for pediatrics rotation, and Alhamdulillah it went well. Except that I cant remember another controller for asthma management except corticosteroid (for counselling station) tapi okay lah, sebab tak baca sangat pun pasal asthma hahaa ><" , at least I went out from the pediatrics clinic dengan hati berbunga dan seronok.

Oh for your information, untuk osce pediatrics ada 3 stations, yang pertama station history taking, second for physical examination, the third one is counselling (ala-ala viva). Each station for 6 minutes. Habis je 6 minutes tu, and doctor will ring the bell, okay go to the next station.

Back to perasaan berbunga-bunga tu, kenapa? It's not that I performed really well or beyond excellent ke apa, but the doctors/specialists yang jaga stations tu sangaaaaaat baik dan supportive. Rasa macam nak peluk jeee semua semua doctor bila dah habis tiga-tiga station tu. But mind you, the doctors semua lelaki ==' Bila doctors baik macam tu, less nervous dan rasa seronok je masa exam, alhamdulillah once again :) In the end, it's not about the marks pun, but that satisfying feelings when we felt that we already tried our best. But again, all the praises should be returned back to Him ♥

And I just have to say this, walaupun materials untuk pediatrics ni luar biasa banyak jugak, but I really enjoy everyday rounds and history taking/examination with those innocent and blissful souls. Kalau antara tiga rotations ni (surgery vs internal med vs pediatrics) as for now I will say my most favorite one is paeds :) Okay terbanyak pulak bebel. Bila je faziera ni tak bebel masalahnya heee :PP

Okay, now masa untuk fokus pada final ! Sikit lagi ni, bertahanlah semuaaaaa !!
Bittaufiq everyone, may Allah ease :)

because makcik is too mainstream :P

random rants lagi

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Lamanya tak bertandang kat sini. Acah-acah sibuk je sebenarnya. Sibuk atau tak mampu mengatur masa dengan baik sebenarnya ? k, sila jawab dalam hati.

Berbaki lagi 4 minggu je untuk posting pediatrik. I have to say this, tahun 4 ni berlalu dengan sangat pantas. Too fast ! Lagi berapa minggu je boleh round dengan ahli group A1 kesayangan. Every one of them have their significant roles. The smart one, the funny one, the one who always saves us from specialist yang tanya soalan macam-macam, the lay-back one, the suka cari pasal one, *cries* I will certainly miss you guys :') #overlyattachedgirl #yesthatsme

When life gives you lemon, you just have to take that lemon, squeeze it out, add some water and sugar and daa~ a fresh lemonade is now ready ! ps/ lama tak minum lemonade Tasneem *I know you're reading this, Tas. So silakan memerah lemon sekarang :3 hihi

Well, final is coming real soon whether you are ready or not. Brace it, and we can do this ! InsyaAllah :)

well, cause awesome things aren't cheap :')

bebelan post exam

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Assalamualaikum :)

so alhamdulillah, 2/3 rotation untuk tahun 4, has been completed. tapi tak boleh cakap complete betul lagi sebab markah tak keluar lagi. But seriously, I've never felt this way (post-traumatic-stress-disorder) duration for 1 day hahaaa k . Never felt so distress hanya sebab seketul exam. Okay, dua ketul. Miniosce & osce. The questions for miniosce was luar alam and even for osce I had that 'mind-blocked' thing. Just to imagine how much marks will I get for the exams rasa macam nak masuk dalam selimut tak keluar-keluar ..

But you know what, life isn't just about rainbows and marshmallows. Too much of sweet things can totally kills you slowly (read ; diabetes + obesity). Too much salts will ease your way to get hypertension. And life is all about the in between ;)


Sekarang dah tenang sikit. Sebab saya tahu, semua yang berlaku are part of His divine plan. Shouldn't I (just a mere slave) just put my trust in Him, the one who knows literally every single thing. He knows me more than I do. *of course, He's the one who created all of us, right ? Heeee

Bersangka baik dengan Allah .

Jom ? :)

ps/ I will continue my Korea travelogue, but really not in the mood haaha so sorry !
pss/ I've been trying to get rid of this childish bling2 cursor, but I've forgotten everything about the coding and html etc. So just ignore the cursor.

Just another clinical rants

Hey, assalamualaikum wbt

So it's been a while isn't it? I've started my internal medicine rotation for almost 2 weeks now. How was it? Still belum grasp it betul2 tapi macam menarik jugak lah sebenarnya. Mostly belajar pasal heart, respiratory, penyakit darah, etc. Today I met a very cooperative uncle. The chief complain is chest pain. We (my friend and I) did a full physical examination on him (inspection + palpation + percussion + ausculatation). Moga Allah permudahkan urusan pakcik :)

Ingat lagi masa minggu first masuk hospital and start touch (buat physical examination)  patient. Awkward  yang amat hahaaa 😂😂 tapi by time, perlahan2 belajar & improvise.

Just like how we should do to ourselves, kan? 

2016 dan tambah lagi satu angka dekat umur. Tapi takde pun rasa beza 21 ke 22 ke, sama je hehe. Hakikatnya lama lagi nak cecah exactly 22 tu mungkin sebab tu lah takde rasa beza kut. Anyway, what is your new year resolution? I am still searching for mine. This time kena cari yang betul-betul solid. Resolutions bersama reasons. Kalau tak, memang sampai pertengahan tahun pun dah hmm. 

Yang pasti, semua orang pun mesti nak yang terbaik untuk diri sendiri, kan ? 

Stepping out from your comfort zone is never going to be easy, but it'll be worth it *tiup2 semangat sikit* 

Best of luck with your 2016. 

Wait, baru sedar sebenarnya lagi 2 tahun lebih je nak grad, cepatnya T_T 

sweater weather

Hey,

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

How's your day? I hope it is great. Well, mine was em super great :P ahaaa it is what we actually call as guilty pleasure. It's the weekend but I didn't even read any lectures yet. Didn't even lift any page of that Browse book. Yeah, that is what we call the medical-student-syndrome (feeling guilty due to lack of studying). But today is an exception. With the gloomy weather, wrapping yourself up in a very comfortable blanket while watching a great movie. *heavy-breathing* That kind of weekend only comes once in a blue moon for a medical student. So, yeah, gonna appreciate it while it last hahahaa *still trying to justify my laziness luls

For this week, my group-mates and I didn't even have to take any history from the patients because we were in the outpatient department (clinics) YEAAAY what a great week with a great weekend ! Alhamdulillah :)


Okay, so I did said that I was gonna do a travelogue cause it's been a while isn't it? So here we go. Let's hear my Korea trip story.


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If I were to be given a chance to describe Korea in 1 word, it will be; AMAZING .

Especially Jeju Island. Yes, i fall in love with that very amazing Island. The cute and friendly ahjummas (aunties) , the tourist friendly tourism sites, and our cute genie (the name of our GPS that were installed in our rent car) who helped us reach anywhere that we wanted to go. Seoul is great, but Jeju is amazing. Maybe because of the stunning scenery that I've witnessed back in Jeju. SubhanAllah. The sea breeze. The smooth sand (Probably the smoothest sand that had ever touched my feet) Oh my :')

Or maybe because it's my very first road trip with my favorite girls :)

...

But too bad, the internet is running real slow. It kills my mood. As there are too many pictures to be shared with everyone so I'll just continue writing this when my internet's line is better.

Sorry.

But I really hope you guys enjoy your weekend like I do < 3

kalau dunia pun Allah dah cipta seindah ni, apatah lagi syurga, ye dok ? 

tapi syurga bukan untuk orang malas, ok T_T

rants #40

6 years and 1 day .

Guess what , that is the age of my dearest blog :) happy belated birthday ! Too bad i missed it .. ==' but nevermind.

You see,

I used to talk very fast. But living with other normal-paced-speech-people had taught me to slow down my speech. Well, a bit. A lot actually. You should have meet the 7 years old me. Uish, semua orang jumpa akan bagitahu saya cakap macam kereta api. Orang kata, orang yang cakap laju ni biasanya otak dia pun fikir laju. Orang kata, bukan saya :P hehee . But yeah, my mind do wanders a lot. Especially in a moving vehicle. Reason? No idea at all. Ilham datang mencurah-curah kalau duduk dalam bas ke kereta ke, macam-macam otak ni fikir tanpa sebarang paksaan  (read; brainstorming) .

Nak katanya, melalui medium blog ni lah, saya belajar menyusun apa-apa yang terlintas macam kereta api kat minda ni.

So yeah, kudos blog < 3


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so let's talk about my clinical life. Again. Hahahaa k =='

Maka, minggu ni group kitorang berada di outpatient department. It is awesome and there is 2 more days to call it a week. Semalam ikut Dr yang specialized dalam chest surgery. Banyak sangat cases, bertalu-talu datang pesakit. Tengok CT scan, X rays. For today dapat Dr yang specialized in peripheral vascular diseases, tengok Dr bersihkan luka (diabetic foot), ada skin graft, follow up patient yang baru amputate. *tarik nafas dalam-dalam* I have to say this, "you still have a very long way to go, Faziera Diana"

Minggu lepas masa round dekat hospital dengan Dr, Dr pergi dekat icu, tunjuk contoh for drainage. The patient survived a road traffic accident (RTA), ada internal bleeding and dia tengah drain blood from the chest. The patient is a young kid. Kesian sangat dekat dia. Masa cakap 'salamtik' (which means; sejahtera ke atas kamu. It is a common phrase untuk doakan orang dekat sini) pun I couldn't hide my concerned and sad face :( which I shouldn't show as a professional future physician. But yeah, the learning process will take time. And I shall be tough cause things are only getting harder from now on.

Tapi terngiang-ngiang lagi muka si comel Salam masa round paediatric dulu. I hope she is getting better now :)


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Entah, sedar tak sedar dah tahun 4. Lagi 2 tahun setengah je lagi. Yes, I am scared of the future. Can I make it through? Can I be a reliable and competent doctor? Most importantly, can I survive being a doctor in Malaysia? What about my family and future family? Sometimes I cant help but thinking of who would have wanted a doctor as a wife =='

Okay, stop. Jangan jauh sangat, patah balik jom.


So yeah, the future depends on what we do in the present.

Focus on doing your best right now. Have faith in Him. Put your trust in the One who knows every single thing that had happened and going to happen. Cause we are just mere humans after all. All weak and fragile. Without His mercy, we are nothing.



May Allah guide us all the way through :)