bai bai Jebat :'(

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Bukankah setiap yang hidup tu pasti akan menemui kematian? 

Tapi kadang-kadang, kita terlalu leka mengejar sesuatu yang tak pasti (baca; dunia) sampai terlupa sesuatu yang pasti (baca; ajal) . Banyak mana kita dah bersedia sebenarnya kan? *nangis*

Kenapa tiba-tiba cakap pasal ni? Hm, jentikan hati Allah bagi. 

Semalam, baru sahaja kehilangan kawan kecil, Jebat nama dia. Macam tak sangka je secepat tu dia pergi. Perasan jugak lately ni dia tidur je kerja tapi dia memang nocturnal, tengah malam baru bangun. Lepas tu Tasneem cakap dia diarrhea. Tup tup, semalam masa kat bilik tiba-tiba Nina panggil. "Faz, jebat macam dah nak mati, Syarfa' and Tasneem tengah nangis tu" and I was like, what? 

Pergi bilik Tasneem, nampak diorang and him. His position waktu tu macam, 

I cant. Sedih sangat :( pegang badan dia, rasa ribs, tulang dia. He was so thin T.T masa tu tengah nazak sebab he's breathing a little yet he didnt move. 

Okay sebenarnya tak berniat pun nak cerita panjang. At least, dia tak pergi masa saya takde kat jordan ye dak? Oh and hari ni exam genetic. After exam, petang tadi kitorang bertiga tanam Jebat dekat tanah lapang berdekatan. Safe and sound insyaAllah. 

Hilang binatang peliharaan pun rasa sedih sampai sekarang. 

Diorang yang hilang parents, adik beradik hari-hari tu? Allah, sangat kuat mereka tu nak dibandingkan dengan saya ni. *nangis lagi*

Tq for all the joy you bring in our life Jebat

Rest in peace, insyaAllah

This was him when Tasneem first brought him home :')

R.I.P Jebat

4/3/2013-24/1/2014

*this is one of the reason why i dont really prefer to have emotional attachment with just anyone. I hate the feeling of losing them :/*

Happy Eid, everyone :)

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh,
salam Syawal, salam kemenangan buat seluruh umat Islam :)



Alhamdulillah, selesai Ramadhan saya yang ke 19 . Kalian dah yang keberapa ? 



So macam mana la eh perasaan sambut raya dekat negara orang, jauh dari keluarga tercinta. Mula-mula tu memang la sedih juga, lagi-lagi tengok kawan-kawan Yarmouk balik, tengok kawan-kawan buat iftor batch, lepas tu hmm sebenarnya tak expect pun nak sambut raya dekat sini sebab memang plan tiap tahun nak balik. hehe :P

tapi manusia merancang dan Allah yang menentukan . 

Lagipun, sedih jugak sebab macam rutin biasa waktu raya dah tak boleh buat. Dekat rumah saya yang selalu tolong isi balang kuih raya, *my fav task sebab sambil isi boleh rasa sikit, hehe* then, makan sambal daging dengan ketupat . Yang tu memang rutin every year lah, mesti ada sambal daging. Sebab family mama dulu orang Melaka kut. Kalau dapat first raya dekat Taiping, rasa sambal daging Tok Yah, perghh , memang terbaik. Pedas macam mana pun mesti nak tambah lagi ! hehe. Then, lepas abang-abang balik sembahyang raya dekat masjid, kitorang akan sama-sama pergi lawat kubur mama and bacakan yasiin. Okay , that one part yang agak terkilan. Tapi , sama je kalau hadiahkan dari mana-mana pun, cuma bila pergi situ rasa cam 
dekat la. Lagi-lagi pergi dengan siblings. But its okay , doa itu kan universal :)


Maka, untuk menghidupkan rutin raya, malam raya tu, saya pun try lah masak sambal daging special tu. Hehe. And it turned out sambal tu jadi extra pedas. It took me quite a while untuk menyantuni rasa sambal daging itu supaya semua orang boleh makan. Hahahaaha, takpe lah, first try kan. Balik nanti nak belajar dengan abah , so that raya next year dapat buat yang terbaik punya ! heheheheee. 

Ramai-ramai kitorang kumpul dekat bilik saya and Tasneem, buat cookies. Boleh la nak panggil biskut raya. Hehe. And I also made my first puding jagung. Lahai, senang je buat punya la malas nak buat selama ni suka makan je. haha. 


Masa 1 syawal,

ada banyak banyak banyak sangat rumah terbuka. Dari pagi sampai lah asar saya and kawan-kawan lain pergi rumah terbuka orang. Rendang, kuah kacang, kuih raya , ketupat , soto, dan jugak kerepek pisang semua ada ! Rasa terharu sangat bila jumpa kerepek pisang tu, ya Allah rindunya tak terkata . hehe . maka kesimpulannya, beraya di luar negara tak ada lah hambar mana cuma kita kenalah hidupkan suasana tu . 

Kalau nak beraya dengan orang Jordan je memang serious la , hambar --'

Senang sangat nak spot orang Melayu yang tengah beraya, mesti pakai baju cantik-cantik atau nampak baju Melayu dari jauh. Orang Arab sini, diorang pakai baju biasa je. Tak tahu lah baju baru ke tapi nampak cam biasa je ==' and kedai semua bukak macam biasa, macam hari-hari normal. 

Sebab, orang sini adatnya memang takde lah nak meriah sangat sambut raya macam kat Malaysia instead diorang sangat-sangat meriah sambut Ramadhan. Masa awal-awal Ramadhan dulu, banyak sangat lampu dipasang, sangat meriah la bulan Ramadhan tu . 

so, here are some pictures :)

1st Syawal

the kuih raya . er biskut raya ? hehe

Me : Do you see any more open house? 

capa' : Yeah , I can see it . Heheheheheeee

at Ze's open house 

having too much fun eating ? hehe

2nd Syawal

sesi bermaafan . eheh

mirror mirror on the wall ~

*note ; yang belakang kitorang tu cermin. cool tak ?*

hmm, it wasn't that bad after all . hehe. cuma raya ketiga dah tak keluar, kena fokus untuk final biochem pulak dah , on raya ketujuh ==' its okay, i had enough of raya already :)

Eherm , lagi 11 hari sebelum bertolak ke Malaysia. 
Final biochem, pindah rumah, Final Visual Basic, Final Env Protection . BALIK MALAYSIA :DD

May Allah ease everything. really hope to see you soon, in Malaysia insyaAllah :)

ps/ dah rindu tahap dewa dekat orang2 dekat Malaysia tu dah ni ! hehe

Usrati di Intec a.k.a smart group :)

waah, nampak sedap kan . NYUM NYUM :) tak laah, bukan saya yang buat pun, tapi kakak Naqibah usrah saya yang buat. Sebab usrah kitorang ada tiga orang yang lahir bulan tujuh . hehe. 

sedapnya, moist chocolate cake tu *gulp 

selepas selesai azan isya' dan usrah pun bermula. topik favourite kitorang, macam biasa laah, cerita pasal Dr. Morsi. Kak Mufidah ni dulu belajar dekat universiti di Mesir. Jadi banyak laa jugak yang dia tahu pasal keadaan di sana dengan Ikhwanul-Muslimin, dan sebagainya. Asalnya nak cakap pasal persediaan Ramadhan rasanya. Tapi , tiba-tiba terbincang pasal ni pulak. Sebab kitorang baru je balik dari BTN. Oh, tak buat lagi entri pasal BTN. lepas ni la kut. 

Dalam pukul 10 macam tu, sesi mensyukuri nikmat Allah pun bermula :DD

hehe, sedap sangat la tu :P

oh seriously. yang kanan sekali belah bawah *karamel* SEDAP WEH ! 

See, best tau ada usrah ni. Usrah tu dalam bahasa melayu bermaksud keluarga. Sekurang-kurangnya sekali laa dalam seminggu kalau tiada aral melintang, kak Mufidah akan buat la usrah ni. Bagi saya, usrah ni penting. At least, ada juga la sesi muhasabah sikit2, nak cuci2 sikit hati ni. Kadang-kadang kita tak sedar, dah terlalu terleka dengan keasyikan dunia ni *ayat tak boleh blaah >.<* 

yer, saya teringat zaman selepas PLKN dahulu. KBSW, ONEHD, MTV, FB setiap hari wajibb layan semua tu =.=' 

Kalau zaman sekolah dulu ye lah, usrah diwajibkan, setiap maghrib dan isyak ada kuliah, jadi macam terjaga la jugak. tapi bila dah masuk Universiti atau Kolej, kena pandai2 cari sendiri. InsyaAllah, ada je :)

akhirun kalam; usrah best xD

oh btw, hari tu exam physics. mid-term punyaa. Oh Myyyyy, susahh TT.TT serious tak beberapa nak yakin dengan jawapan. dan, tawakkal laah sebaik-baik penyelesaian. 

HE knows best . JYEAH :DD 

*chill awak , chill .

SSI 'Sambutan Sedekad Intesaber' :)

rindu terubat ? haha, entah la, makin parah ye laaah. saya pergi waktu majlis makan amal tu je, duduk, pakai baju cantik-cantik, *hehe borak2,tangkap gambar sikit2, tu je.tapi rasa gembira sangat sangat dapat jumpa balik kawan-kawan semua. walaupun kitorang baru alumni tak sampai setahun, lepas tu tengok alumni2 lain siap ada yang dukung anak lagi. hahaa, memang harapan la batch kitorang dah ada yang berkeluarga. cepat sangat =='

so, here some pictures :)

wajah2 siswi :)

dengan adik adik dorm Ruqaiyah :')

also especially my ex-classmate, 5 Hidayah, sorry no pictures ==' (tak jadi sangat gambar tuu)

rindu korang. rindu lawatan. rindu main bola tampar. rindu drama He's Tony. rindu semua semua tuu . serious, tak tipu . T.T

hanging out with the PALAMians .

hanging out dekat PKNS. haha. kitorang pergi jugak dekat SACC Mall. 

tau tak, plan asal patutnya mereka ni 'menjemput' saya di kolej Cemara. tapi tiba2 diorang  lambat sebab bas, pastu saya terpaksa laa jadi lone ranger jap, pergi jalan sorang2 ke Esso tu then tunggu bas. Baru tunggu 5 minit, lepas tu saya rasa better naik teksi , sebab masa tu dah pukul 3, bank tutup dalam pukul 4. Saya ada urusan sikit dengan bank . Nak tak nak, berani kan diri, baca doa banyak banyak banyak, then, I go for a taxi. tambang; RM6.60 . The most important thing is; I arrived safely. Alhamdulillah :)

kawan baru; hanis :)

dan syakirah <-- bekas tutor chemistry yang hebat ! 

ni kawan saya dari 2 februari 2010 :O

Lepas dah settle dengan Bank Simpanan Nasional, kitorang pun pergi SACC Mall tu. jauh 'beza' dua tempat tu. hahaa. dekat je. jalan kaki dalam dua ke lima minit dah sampai. yang paling best nya, dalam SACC tu ada macam2 ! yang paling paling penting ada MPH Bookstore. serious, saya sangat menyukai MPH , lagi2 notebooks dia, and the novels, books. waaah . heaven ! lama kut kitorang kat situ. hehe =='

sampai situ je, tengok2 dah pukul 5 setengah, budak2 UiTM Puncak Alam ni kena balik dah, saya pun. Again, naik teksi sorang2 lagi T.T I have no other choice. kalau nak tunggu bas, entah2 silap naik, tak pasal2 sesat kat bandaraya Shah Alam pulak. Alhamdulillah; I safely arrived at Kolej Cemara near 6 pm.

it was fun though, and it has been a challenging day for me; doing something new. Lepas ni tak nak buat dah. bahaya . A girl shouldn't walk alone. Ingat, jenayah berlaku bila ada peluang *I learnt this in PLKN* hehe. lagipun, dunia sekarang ni agak menakutkan. semua orang tak boleh dipercayai. hanya pada Allah je kita boleh berserah dan bertawakkal kalau2, ada keadaan macam tadi berlaku lagi .

ok, thats all for today. Rancangan mega bersama Ezlyni terpaksa postpone sebab dia ada other plans yang suddenly come up T.T sedih wooooo. tapi ok la, at least for today, I did spent my day at the shopping mall with these girls. mueheehe. 

masa untuk concentrate on the piles of assignments. sekian, terima kasih. thanks sebab sudi baca ^^

photoshoot for MEJ4 :)

warm up, before the real photoshoot session :P

Madihan, Khai dan Moi :)

bersama si comel Syarfa'  *suka la tuu*

sesi photoshoot mengejut. no blazzer, no props. tapi kami cool je . hee

so, ni laah hasilnya ^^

 formal punya . oh, find me if you can . haha :D

~ gaya bebas   :DD

 credit to Syazwan for the editing :)

for her :')

Maher Zain; So Soon 

So Soon - Lyrics:

Every time I close my eyes I see you in front of me
I still can hear your voice calling out my name
And I remember all the stories you told me
I miss the time you were around 
I miss the time you were around 
But I'm so grateful for every moment I spent with you
'Cause I know life won't last forever

Chorus:

You went so soon, so soon,
You left so soon, so soon,
I have to move on 'cause I know it's been too long,
I've got to stop the tears, keep my faith and be strong,
I'll try to take it all, even though it's so hard,
I see you in my dreams but when I wake up you are gone,
Gone so soon

Night and day, I still feel you are close to me
And I remember you in every prayer that I make 
Every single day may you be shaded by His mercy
But life is not the same, and it will never be the same
But I'm so thankful for every memory I shared with you
'Cause I know this life is not forever

Chorus

There were days when I had no strength to go on
I felt so weak and I just couldn't help asking why
But I got through all the pain when I truly accepted
That to God we all belong, and to Him we'll return, oh

Chorus

oh by the way, sebab korang tak boleh nak pause kan lagu dalam blog ni, 
kalau nak dengar, boleh je tutup page ni and sambung layan di youtube, mesti dengar tau tau :)

HASNI, at last I found her ! :D

dia masuk INTEC hari ahad lepas, 3 Jun. Tapi baru tadi masa kitorang buat rehearse lagu UiTM baru dapat jumpa dia. Sibuk sangat dengan orientasi. Well, saya senior 2 minggu awak ! haha :P

sahabat till jannah ? insyaAllah :)

serious, saya rindu intesaber !

missing all those moments :'(

till the very last moment, byebye intesaber.

you are one of the the sweetest thing that ever happened to me :)

INTEC, Shah Alam

its been weeks since I left home, and become a student of INTEC, UiTM. To be honest, the first day was like the most miserable day, I went there without any photocopied documents, not even my Dad's identity card's copy. I even didn't bring enough money to pay the fees, also, I didn't bring along any passport picture's of me. When the facilitators asked us to bring along our documents for the night, to prepare ourselves for registeration process, I was like ==' uuh. 

So, that late evening, I rushed to the printing shop, the KODAK shop, and so on. Alhamdulillah, Kak Rachel was there to help me. Hehee, thank you sis. Also, Wani helped me bought my dinner, well, I can't live without food. Hehe. Alhamdulillah, Tasneem was willing to lend me some of her money, so I can pay the fees. Although the day was quite miserable, in which I was suppose to be spending my day with Che and Ezlyni in Time Square that day , but its okay, HE knows best , right ? :) Though I have to face such situations, HE still sends people to help me out along the way, how sweet :))

oh, don't remind me how awful I look at the passport picture I took that evening -.-'

note that; It was a last minute call. Taraa~ surprise from collaboration between JPA-MARA. It was that morning during breakfast that I knew that I need to register for MEP, INTEC at that particular moment. I guess that explain my unorganized day. Haaha

And, so I went through the Minggu Destini Siswa with MARA's students, and my group is super awesome. 

*tepuk periuk*

Haiyaa Haiyaa Sodiqi 2x 

We are, the MUMTAZ elf :D

hehe, that was my group's cheers. But, we changed it ==' don't ask why :P and all the performances that final night was super hilarious. All of them were so funny, and spontaneous, and that sometimes made me wonder, why can't I be like them T.T Its okay, everyone have their own advantages :)

the awesome facilitators :D

and so, the orientation ended well. The next week, the class started. The journey of a college's student just started. Where , I have to buy my own food, shop my own groceries, count in the money I've used so that the money will be enough. The deans just started to give explanation about their subjects. Bout the researches, and warned us bout the lots and lots of presentation. English was our main language back there, in the class. And, everyone there are so awesome. 

New environment, new people, new atmosphere,

classmate, Syaqira. dr Kelantan. hee :)

hope that everything will be great and just fine here. InsyaAllah :)

hehee. cam tak cam tak ? hoho :P

at last, I did it !

Alhamdulillah, betul cakap orang,

work hards pay off

haha, poyo habis. first time ni, ambil blogskin then edit myself, thanks to my Along for the helps 


so, why did I made the decision to change my layout?

because I realize, this is the moment when everyone starts moving on,

I should too :)

insyaAllah , lepas ni semua kawan2 bakal bergelar mahasiswi/mahasiswa, no more budak2 sekolah. Kena start balik engine kat otak ni yang agak2 dah berhabuk setebal 10 inci kut. And the subjects in campus can be quite hard, yet it ain't imposibble for us to score, kan ? yang penting usaha :D


lepas ni, dah kena buang the bad old habits kat rumah macam, layan cerita korea dengan keterlaluan =='' kena organize balik masa. buat balik jadual. well, your honeymoon is over, darl :) cukup cukup sudah .


mesti korang pernah dengar quote ni ;

Life is like riding a bicycle,we must keep on moving in order to stay balance 

lets do it, lets change for good, pal . lets start the whole NEW chapter :)

melaka, bandaraya bersejarah.

its a great opportunity, for us to gather back and went on a trip together. seriously, sangat2  best. walaupun terpaksa jalan kaki, sebab tunggu bas lama sangat =.='' a big THANKS to kak Murni yang adventurous dan ajak kitorang semua berjalan kaki, dan pergi ke tempat2 menarik di Melaka tu. Bila jalan ramai2, serious, kurang rasa penatnya. fun dan enjoy je. hehe, suka2 je cross jalan, pastu kena hon dengan kereta --'' hectic, but its worth it :)

Day 1
bertolak pada pukul 10 pagi, dan sampai lebih kurang pukul 12. lepas isi perut, kitorang meneroka Bandar Hilir Melaka :D

melaka sentral 

sangat crowded, bas sangat kecil meh

just arrived; in front of Mahkota Parade :)

whee, nak naik menara Taming Sari :D

 we are going up ! :)

the fantastic view

"1,2,3 ismail ", ujar pakcik beca :P

in front of A'Famosa

cheese :D

amazing . 

bila mereka berposing :P

di taman larangan diraja , Melaka 

woot woot  ♥

abang beca, abang beca di tengah jalan :)

hafsah dan eil alia

singgah kejap di sini, thanks pakcik beca :D

with JAM BESAR. pakcik beca yang offer nak snapkan gambar 

again, dah nak balik ni. tired, of wandering in bandar hilir. hee ~

take a break, hehe

the end of day 1. malam tu kitorang berehat di rumah kakak Murni, esok kena bangun awal, kitorang nak jelajah Ayer Keroh pulak ! cewah :P

Day 2

pagi tu, bersarapan di Warong Anda; restoran kepunyaan keluarga Kak Murni. then, the journey begins :)

mari2, singgah Melaka, makan kat sini :P

waiting for the bus 

umi dan alia :)

the yunas . ahha :P

umi, pandang camera :D

yeah ~

here we come; taman buaya :)

muka tenang before masuk lorong gelap --''

RAWR !!

umi nadzrah :)

panjang ouhh leher dia. pandai pulak pandang camera, :P

with the beauty ; encik merak 

pertunjukkan buaya :DD

malacca wonderland, seriously sangat2 fun ! :D

dengan maskot2 comel :)

hee :D

BEST ! dapat third place :)

having so much fun ? :)

peace :D

serious, best sangat2 ! its worth it to pay rm 30 :)

thanks to kak Murni sekeluarga, yang sudi tumpangkan kami ke sini 

Fikri buat suprise kat semua orang, from 15 jadi 16 :)

pakcik depan tu, tolong laah duduk. --''

beautiful

eye on Melaka :)

sangat banyak barang2 yang rare dan cute di sini ! best :D

at Restoran Asam Pedas, seriously asam pedas dia masyukk~

see me ? saya sedang menahan pedas tuh -.-''

the end of day 2. nak tau tak, dari wonderland melaka tu, kitorang jalan kaki, balik ke Mydin. quite jauh dan hectic, tapi sangat fun :) malam tu, rasa sedih sebab esok dah kena balik Selangor T.T sebab tu kena enjoy tiap detik yang berlalu. sobsobs

Day 3

supposed to be our last day in Malacca, walau bagaimanapun, kitorang buat keputusan sebulat suara untuk stay lagi semalam bila teacher Norin ajak stay rumah dia. Its a miracle :)

we're leaving :'(

byebye, Ayer Keroh Heights

hehe, peace yaww

faz-teacherNorin-saba  ♥

macam tourist ! memang pun . hehe

telaga Hang Tuah , ada buaya putih kat situ. hehe. mitos zaman dulu2.

smile :DD

rumah tradisional Melaka

ni dah malam, boys keluar. kata tengok movie, rupa2 nya gi karaoke. hehe #gambar curik

juga gambar curi :P

malam tu girls duduk rumah je, enjoy tengok movie. haha, cerita apa entah. lepas tu, dah midnight boys pun balik rumah, and tengok cerita hantu sama2 =.='' . lepas tu, ngantuk pergi tidur. hehehe. budak laki main ps kut. ntah laah . hahaa :P

Day 4

waah, dah last day T.T takde pape sangat pun. lepak2, tengok cerita rebound to love sama2 , hehe. lepas tu, selepas zohor, kitorang pun bergerak sama2 menuju ke TBS . bye2 Melaka. I'll miss you. :')

gorgeous, rumah teacher Norin :)

ni laah , teacher Norin ,

depan rumah teacher yang cantik :D

last picture di melaka sentral :'(

time to go home :'(

alia dan hafsah :)

hehee :)

detik2 terakhir ..

umaaah. korang, jangan pergi T.T

okay, tu je. bye bye Melaka. see you next time. uwaah T.T okay, memandangkan Abu dah bagi ucapan, and so goes Saba and Ilham, saya pun nak bagi ucapan;

dearest classmates,

     terima kasih banyak2 sebab banyak bagi kenangan manis kat saya sepanjang 2 tahun saya belajar di kelas tu. antara kenangan yang terbaik dan saya takkan lupa for my whole life , ialah masa korang sudi korbankan masa study dan buat suprise birthday party untuk saya di kelas 5h. Thank you sangat2. kenangan drama He's Tony lagi, dan yang paling best drama kita menang number satu :DD hehe, Untuk trip ni pulak, thanks to everyone, especially Ilham Alia, Kak Murni dan Teacher Norin, I really enjoy the trip. lepas trip ni, saya rasa makin sayang dekat kawan2 classmates saya. hehe. 

lepas ni semua nak pergi jauh2, kejar impian masing2, but no worries, orang kata; absence makes heart grows fonder :) just make it stay that way okay. sementara tu, jom layan lagu ni; lagu yang boboy nyanyikan untuk ggirl masa jamuan kelas . *sobsob

lagi layan if korang dengar lagu ni sambil2 baca post ni. boleh kut ternangis :')